God must have spent a lil more time on you...

I keep wondering everytime I think of you,
Celestial or real,what really are you?
Everything about you forces me to question,
Did God spend a little more time on you??

Your eyes twinkle like the early morning dew,
You give the beings around ,a reason to live,
I bet,you gave the color its hue,
coz God really spent a little more time on you!!

With your scowl arrives autumn,your mirth invites blossom
The rainbow reminds me of a smiling you,
You tucking the wisp of hair is a sight to a priviledged few,
Yes,God must have really spent a lil' more time on you.

I lost myself when I mused about you,
Fell for your eyes and the enigma grew.
A mere glimpse of you convinces me that its true,
God certainly has spent a lil' more time on you...!!!

Courtesy:-God must have spent...The song by Nsync

A short story...

"More money,huh??I gave you more than enough money on your bday to party with your friends, not to mention the new Iphone that I and your Mom gifted you",His dad said with the same composure that he had shown throughout his life.
There was only one thing that perturbed this rich businessman,his son.His reckless attitude towards life, his lack of reverence for the things around and his unmannered behaviour worried him more than anything else.

   "Dad,for God's sake,the exams just got over,I need some more money",He said with all the desperation he could.

  "Son,I am not letting you squander my money this way",his Dad was adamant and determined not to give in this time to his son's demands.

  "Dad...please",he pleaded several times,his frustration growing with every denial.

 "I am sorry,son...not this time."

He gave up and stomped away.The moment his father heard the roaring of the car engine,he shouted ,"drive safe and come back soon."
Whenver frustrated he used to vent his frustration by racing the car with great speed.

He was on a bridge now.He saw the warning sign but was too occupied with thoughts to notice and slow down.
"Where am I gonna get the money from ??",no answer...helplessness...speed 70 mph.

"He does not want me to be happy.Why else would he deny me the money??" no answer...anger..speed 90 mph

"I will borrow from a friend.Oh shit..I lost the bet last time and I already owe him 3000 bucks...damn it"...frustration..speed 110 mph.

"Oh..fuck!!" He said as he saw that his car was about to hit a man.He tried with all his might,to brake.The car skidded but it was too late.The car had hit the man hard and had run over him. He lost control over the car.And the next moment,the car was falling off the bridge.....



30 minutes ago... and just a kilometer away in some other house by the lane..


"Mom,the saree looks good on you.."He said.

"Why did you have to spend so much money on saree??And the watch that you brought for your bhai also looks very expensive."

"Mom,common,what else do you think I 'd do with my first salary??"

His mother and his brother who had brought him up after their father's death meant the world to him.All the hardships they had gone through just flashed in front of his eyes for a second.

He savoured the food..washed his hands and checked his cell.There was a msg from his friend asking him to come to his place urgently.

He told his Mom that he would be a little late and set off.He never took the route via bridge but today he did.He needed solitude for some time and he knew the bridge would be deserted .

As he walked on the bridge,he retrospected upon his life ,about his year long struggle for employment after graduation.he liked a girl since his college days .he thought of how he is going to break the news to his family.And he thought about how....."Oh...fuck!!"the words hit his ears .A car with ferocious speed hit him from behind and had run over him and he was on the ground wallowing in blood moaning in pain.His pain was becoming unbearable and his eyes were about to shut and the last sight that he saw....

.
.
the car was falling off the bridge.



Courtesy::Vantage Point,the movie!!

The Last Fortnight.......

     Hi folks...If you might have noticed the interval between two of my consecutive posts..it must have dawned on you how regularly irregular I am.Its not like I dont have stuff to write....its just that I have to have the right disposition to go and write a post.

         This post is not meant to be a didactic one.This is just meant to review the happenings in the last fortnight and the fortnight previous to it(the real reason being ...its to satiate my today's hunger for writing).

         To start with,we had 3 biggies(read:companies with a big name) lined up for placement one after the another at the start of this month.There was ZS(Zoltners and Sinha),there was NVIDIA and there was JOHN DEERE.I wont go into much of detail illustrating how the test was and all that stuff.I would just say that I flunked at the first two(didnt even clear the apti) and got through the third one(JD).But,eventually,didn't manage to convert it into an offer(after a so-so technical interview and HR round).I was not meant for JD,I think.

          Then...we had mid-sem exam which was a disaster.This time I found it more difficult than the previous ones.But then honestly I hadnt studied as much as I used to study before.(Final year fever,I guess...).Hey,guess what?, I joined gym some days ago(another symptom....guys here usually join gym in the final yr).

         I also watched a few good movies this month.To name a few,A walk to Remember(romance),State of Play(suspense,drama),The Hangover(comedy),Man from Earth(History,Scifi).Out of all these ,Man from earth which is really a thought-provoking one had a long lasting impact on all of us who watched it together.Its a story of a professor who confesses to his colleagues at his farewell party that he is 14000 years old and he does not age(de facto,he had stopped aging a long before).He further goes on to reveal that he has met Buddha,had a chance to travel with Columbus and many more.His most shocking revelation comes when he discloses the fact that he was JESUS CHRIST.Now isnt that an interesting one?? Go get your hands on this movie and watch it people.Its really awesome.

          Finally,the best thing that happened to me last month was that I got associated with an NGO named Pankhudi.At Pankhudi,some children from the nearby slum area are brought at COEP and taught life-skills.My very first day at Pankhudi was a day I will always cherish.I directly went to the wakdewadi slum to get the children.While my colleagues went to get the students ,I was told to look after those already present there.I found an unexpressible happiness and joy in playing with those kids,some were pulling my shirt,some were hitting me with hankerchief,some wanted me to lift them up in the air and when I did so..the innocence and mirth on their faces was so divine,I just cant forget that.It was great.It was really beyond words.

           The next day,we went to an orphanage name MANAVYA near Bhugaon.It was a different experience there.We played with those kids,showing them some tricks which they were puzzled to see at first but then they got us to tell them how to do those tricks.I was pretty amazed when a guy there who is gonna appear for SSC this year took me to their computer lab and told me things about computer which even I didn't know.I was happy,I had finally found solace.

       Thats it guys..this is all that happened last fortnight.Now that midsem is over,the monotonous college routine begins from tomorrow.:-(

Ambitions.....

           Aaargh...Its been long enough since I wrote last.Being away from a place from where I could blog is what kept me away from writing a post.I was home the last few days courtesy the outbreak of Swine Flu.

           At home when I was having some quality time with my Mom and Dad,I just could not help but tell them about the recent disposition of my mind and about the unfortunate happenings with me.(Believe me,I felt a lot relieved after doing this...Its only mother's lap where you finally find the heavenly solace on...).And then my parents simply laughed and told me about the grim problems they had faced.My mother narrated a story about a boy in our neighbourhood and what he and his brothers had to go through to finally secure their lives.It was then I realised that my shortcomings were so insignificant.My father boosted me up by reminding me of my achievements,about my ambitions and told me that he didnt bring me up to be someone who gave in so easily to debacles but to be a fighter and finally be a winner.I felt so rejuvenated.My morale catapulted after hearing the word 'ambitions'.Man..all this time I had been oblivious to my ambitions.

           While I retrospect the days of my childhood,when I didnt even know what ambitions meant..when someone asked what I wanted to be when I grew up..I gave answers..answers that I look upon now as funny or absurd .I am sure everyone of us must have had their own fantasies about becoming a pilot or a doc..or a cop and must have answered the same way like I did,isnt it??Gone are the days when you could just hop from one aim to another and lost are the times of changing aims for the sake of writing an essay on "My ambitions in life" that would fetch u good marks.

           Ambitions,I feel,are things that one lives for,one is obsessed with.Ambitions are not that one dreams of.Ambitions are dreams that render you sleepless.I have had many such sleepless nights dreaming about things that I want to do.I have tossed on bed many a times dreaming with eyes wide open and I loved the feeling.It kinda inundates you with zeal and enthusiasm.

           Many of us have ambitions that require us to break the shackles of peer pressure.But very few lack the courage to take the path less trodden.

           So all you people like me out there who are really obsessed with ambitions and really wanna get what u covet,brace yourself up for the challenges that are gonna come your way and for the hundreds of sleepless nights you gonna spend.

                      Thanks for stopping by..

I am Complaining....:-(

My moment of solitude told me that when you are going low,the whole world wants to hit you below the belt.Thats what exactly has been happening to me or is it just what I think?.I am flummoxed.

           I seem to have lost my bearings.My behaviour has become an aberrant one.There is a kind of feeling of being insecure all the time,of being vulnerable.I dont know whats happening to me.I just dont know.

            I am yelling at people,spitting out all the venom of frustration on friends.I am complaining about everything that comes across.Gradually ,I am becoming cynical.I was not the same before.Though ,there have been times when I was bowled over and distraught over debacles,but I never gave in to them.But this time,I am not able to keep myself unperturbed.I never had to pretend that everything is hunky-dory because things were genuinely fine then.But I am pretending now although I dont want to.

           I dont know what I am transforming into,like some kind of maniac??.I am just sure of one thing ...... this is not the person I used to be.

The Audacity of Hope....

Yes....I am a final year student now.Our result was declared a month ago and I passed with good grades,not only good but in fact the highest that I ever got in all these three years of engineering.But they matter the least to me.Because they weren't there when I really needed them.The whole story goes like this..

           In our final year of engineering ,we are required to do a project that is sponsored by a company i.e they are company projects.The companies held tests to select students for projects.As soon as our end-sem got over,NVIDIA was scheduled to come the following week for selection test.The eligibility criteria was g.p.a 8.0 and above."Damn it!!!What the hell??",I exclaimed.I was just 0.02 short of 8.00.Mine was 7.98 then.Then came DELCAM.Again the criteria was 8.00.!I felt like being one of the most unfortunate ppl on earth.

           And after all these ,the most awaited thing came.Results!!They came but the harm had already been done!!My g.p.a now had augmented to 8.09 but I had missed two important companies."Cool,now I will be allowed to appear for all the companies !!",I mused.But when Binary Mantra came.I fell ill.Then there were rumours that Symantec would be coming the next week.I patiently waited .But when there were no signs of Symantec ,I packed my bags and set off to my home for my cousin sis's wedding.That was inevitable.I could not miss it.

           Then when I had just returned home from the wedding,I learnt that Symantec was going to conduct a test the next day.This gave me a coup de grace,a deathblow.So,in this way, I could not make it for Symantec .

           Now,I completely relied on TCS which was gonna conduct a test on 20th june.I reached Pune on 19th june and started preparing for the test.I thought I better grab this opportunity or I will be in real mess.But even this time ,I didnt succeed.I dont know what went wrong.Now I feel like being "misfortune's chosen one",like "ill-fate's favourite child".And what adds to the lament is watching people around you getting projects and discussing work and you are in total despair. By this time ,lot of people have gotten projects in companies and some have even started their work.

           But I still HOPE that I wont be left empty handed.I still HOPE that even I wud get a company.I still HOPE,that there would be bliss after this period of dismay.I still HOPE that this trauma would be over and I would be on cloud nine one day.Yes, I do HOPE.

           And such is the POWER of HOPE and its audacity that it drives in optimism in your life.It is HOPE and ultimately optimism that makes you believe in your self and hikes you up to face the challenges that are awaiting!!!!!


May HOPE be with you.......

The Bus incident...

     This incident took place when I was travelling back home from Akola to Buldhana(my hometown) after having attended my cousin sister's wedding.There is nothing very special about this incident except for the fact that it narrates how cheap and selfish some people can be.


     So,I was in the bus...When I boarded the bus,there were only a few people in the bus.But as it approached Buldhana,it got packed with people.(I still dont understand,why does the govt. not impose any restriction on the number of people that can be stuffed in a bus.And even if there is any such restriction,why dont the authorities or the bus conductor care to implement this?It gets quite messy and suffocating when buses are stuffed.)Well.....So,I was just one stop short of my destination..plenty of people were standing.


     At this stop ,one very old man boarded the bus.He was so old that the bus conductor had to help him board the bus.He even suggested him that he better take another bus coz this one was too jampacked and crammed.But the old man insisted...I saw him showing his pass to conductor.I was going to disembark at the next stop.I could not see the old man standing.Seeing his condition,I decided to give my place to that old man.So,I vacated my place and called the old man. "Aajoba, basa(old man ,have a seat)" ,I said to him rising from my seat.But before that old man could come and sit there ,a much younger man in his 30's had occupied my seat.That son of a bitch had seen me calling that old man but still he didnt care... That scoundrel gave me a nasty look that made me feel like that I was being mocked by him.Even that old man gave me a very pathetic look .I tried to protest and argue with that bloody S.O.B but I soon realised that the conductor was asking me to get down the bus,the stop I was to get down had come.No one amongst who saw this bothered to ask the man to get up and let the old man have that seat.


      I got down with a heavy heart and a helpless look from that old man that haunted me for quite some time.So,the next time you are in a bus n you wanna help someone by giving him/her your seat,just make sure some S.O.B isnt eyeing that seat...