The big switch

    Just five days ago,I used to live a life of a maverick.I used to be an engineering student at COEP.I was living my college life
to the fullest.All things said and done about engineering and about college life,I was experiencing them.Friends used to my family,the 10 X 10 sized
hostel room,my abode.Then suddenly 1st,2nd,3rd and then 4th year is gone and the college life is over...snap ....cuttt........and I am at my home
staring at a walls awaiting a new life,a new challenge.

     As I retrospect my engineering days,I realise that I have still not been able to get over the nostalgia.I badly long for the hilarious lectures(yes they were hilarious) where learning was the last thing we did.I long for the after-lecture chats,the late night discussions,petty fights.I long for the 4.00 clock breakfast at mess and the meal with thousand others like me.
I long to share my secrets with closest friends and I long to have them share their secrets with me.I just cant get over the longing.

    But it is the last day of engineering,the 14th May,that will hound me every now and then.Had the end not been so blissful and memorable,I would not have realised what it actually means to be on cloud no 99.It was nice..surreal but nice.And now everything has been compiled into a souvenir.A souvenir that will remind me of the best days of my life.A souvenir that is going to make it hard for me to move on.

    Now,as I indulge myself in staring at the walls,looking into infinity,I am brought back to reality by my nephew who insists on showing me a magic trick with cards and then I look around and see my nieces and nephew awaiting my attention..I chuckle and let myself to be a subject to their prank.

Dear Mom.....

Dear Aai......,
  You have no idea how overwhelmed I get when I think how proud I am to be born to you.What a wonderful human being you are ,Mom.I just cant find the right words to describe you.I really think,if God really existed,he could not have been better.

        Mom,I must tell you that I still cherish the sight of you waiting for me to get back from school and the way you used to shout when I used to jump down from the running auto.I still vividly remember how patiently u heard me out preparing breakfast for me when I told you about how my day at school was.When you asked me,"What do you want for lunch in your tiffin today?" ,I used to give absurd answers,I used to demand food which took a lot trouble to prepare.But then in school,when I used to open my tiffin and see that you had happily gone and took the trouble to fulfill my demand,I used to be so ashamed of myself and so filled with gratitude.Aai,I am sorry for all the trouble I have caused you.Mom,I badly miss the time when you used to feed me with your own hand while I was busy watching T.V.

      Mom,I fall short of words to describe the solace I find in you lap.I remember how my problems dont dare to bother me when you are around.I appreciate you for keeping me grounded,Mom.Aai,I just want to tell you that even if "Akshay" grows up for the world,I would be the same "pappu" for you.Aai,sometimes when i look at myself,I see reflections of your behaviour in me.If there is even a single thing good about me,if I am or were to be someone tomorrow ,I owe it to you, Mom,to you.....

    Mom,this Mother's day ,I just want to let you know Mom,every moment I crave for your immaculate love and care.I am pretty sure whatever I do for you ,I will not be able to pay off your debt.

    Mom,I simply love you so much..