God must have spent a lil more time on you...

I keep wondering everytime I think of you,
Celestial or real,what really are you?
Everything about you forces me to question,
Did God spend a little more time on you??

Your eyes twinkle like the early morning dew,
You give the beings around ,a reason to live,
I bet,you gave the color its hue,
coz God really spent a little more time on you!!

With your scowl arrives autumn,your mirth invites blossom
The rainbow reminds me of a smiling you,
You tucking the wisp of hair is a sight to a priviledged few,
Yes,God must have really spent a lil' more time on you.

I lost myself when I mused about you,
Fell for your eyes and the enigma grew.
A mere glimpse of you convinces me that its true,
God certainly has spent a lil' more time on you...!!!

Courtesy:-God must have spent...The song by Nsync

A short story...

"More money,huh??I gave you more than enough money on your bday to party with your friends, not to mention the new Iphone that I and your Mom gifted you",His dad said with the same composure that he had shown throughout his life.
There was only one thing that perturbed this rich businessman,his son.His reckless attitude towards life, his lack of reverence for the things around and his unmannered behaviour worried him more than anything else.

   "Dad,for God's sake,the exams just got over,I need some more money",He said with all the desperation he could.

  "Son,I am not letting you squander my money this way",his Dad was adamant and determined not to give in this time to his son's demands.

  "Dad...please",he pleaded several times,his frustration growing with every denial.

 "I am sorry,son...not this time."

He gave up and stomped away.The moment his father heard the roaring of the car engine,he shouted ,"drive safe and come back soon."
Whenver frustrated he used to vent his frustration by racing the car with great speed.

He was on a bridge now.He saw the warning sign but was too occupied with thoughts to notice and slow down.
"Where am I gonna get the money from ??",no answer...helplessness...speed 70 mph.

"He does not want me to be happy.Why else would he deny me the money??" no answer...anger..speed 90 mph

"I will borrow from a friend.Oh shit..I lost the bet last time and I already owe him 3000 bucks...damn it"...frustration..speed 110 mph.

"Oh..fuck!!" He said as he saw that his car was about to hit a man.He tried with all his might,to brake.The car skidded but it was too late.The car had hit the man hard and had run over him. He lost control over the car.And the next moment,the car was falling off the bridge.....



30 minutes ago... and just a kilometer away in some other house by the lane..


"Mom,the saree looks good on you.."He said.

"Why did you have to spend so much money on saree??And the watch that you brought for your bhai also looks very expensive."

"Mom,common,what else do you think I 'd do with my first salary??"

His mother and his brother who had brought him up after their father's death meant the world to him.All the hardships they had gone through just flashed in front of his eyes for a second.

He savoured the food..washed his hands and checked his cell.There was a msg from his friend asking him to come to his place urgently.

He told his Mom that he would be a little late and set off.He never took the route via bridge but today he did.He needed solitude for some time and he knew the bridge would be deserted .

As he walked on the bridge,he retrospected upon his life ,about his year long struggle for employment after graduation.he liked a girl since his college days .he thought of how he is going to break the news to his family.And he thought about how....."Oh...fuck!!"the words hit his ears .A car with ferocious speed hit him from behind and had run over him and he was on the ground wallowing in blood moaning in pain.His pain was becoming unbearable and his eyes were about to shut and the last sight that he saw....

.
.
the car was falling off the bridge.



Courtesy::Vantage Point,the movie!!

Finally,after a big hiatus...

   Its going to be drudgery if I begin this post by saying that "its been a long time since I wrote my last post ".Thats what i usually do.I agree it has been a long time ,really long ,but I have had reasons.I neither had anything happening to write nor the required motivation.A couple of times I even began writing ,but gave up after a couple of lines.Then why all of a sudden today??Well,no specific reason,just felt a very strong yearning and so here I am .I am not even sure whether this will even be read by a single soul.

   So,what am I gonna write about?Nothing happening in particular.I am just gonna vent out things .Pardon me ,for the post is going to be very unorganised,It might not even make sense at times.So where do I start from?

   To begin with,life @ Sungard is good,I have made a lot of good friends here.One thing I learnt at Sungard which is worth mentioning is playing table tennis.Its fun and it has become an essential part of my day's routine in company.And yes,our team is going to Marriot for team lunch coming friday.

   I have started preparing for GRE and I just hope I dont give it up after a while like I have done before.I learnt to solve the Rubik's cube .It had been eluding me for quite a while before I figured it out 2 weeks ago .Felt good for a couple of days only untill I saw a video of a guy solving it in 9 seconds.

   Books..ah..read a couple of books outta which "The Power of your subconcious mind" is an influential one.People ,a strong recommendation,get your hands on this one and peruse it. The gist of the book says that -Whatever you impress upon your subconcious mind has to happen.It says "Ask whole-heartedly and thou shall be given".

    Money..hmm,yeah when you earn your living ,then do u realise how important money is.You get to do all the things which you refrained yourself from doing earlier just because you had no or less money.It feels better.

   Movies..oh..just saw Narnia -the third part today.Lately ,I have seen just one movie with some substance -Guzaarish.The stars in it exemplified whatever Guzaarish stood for.Its a movie with a message-"Kiss slowly, forgive quickly,love truly..Life is too short."

   Addictions....hehe ..,addicted to facebook and twitter just like everyone else, addicted to work ..yeah i have become a workoholic,addicted to playing table tennis in office hours between 5-6 p.m and finally 'sweetest things ' which is an old addiction and most needed one.

   So people ,we are at the end.Goodwill ,hugs and wishes...Adieu!!

Random Post...Cloud No.99!!

 It feels like a decade since I last sat down to write.I guess ,I was too hooked to twitter and SunGard is keeping me pretty busy as well.But blogging will always be my first love(?).

    For all those who visit this page to read something interesting,I would say,it isnt worth it.This is just to satiate my hunger for writing .The past few days have been very fateful and I am so overwhelmed that I need something to channelize this feeling.What better than blogging...

    Well....Yes ,I am on Cloud no 99.Yes..I always knew what fanaticism meant.But the fact that I am fanatic about all the good that has been happening to all the people(TOUCHWOOD..) who matter to me, sets this feeling apart.I wish everyday were the same.Things are happening for the first time and I am glad they are happenning but I am afraid too.Afraid of the time when it would all not be the same.But chuck it,who cares about that for the moment.May be one day everything will make sense.So as of now,I want to enjoy the confusion,I want to believe..everything happens for a reason!!

    Eventually,I would like to thank all who contributed to this feeling..and embellishing this weekend of mine..Thanks for bearing with me...Goodwill ,hugs and wishes!!!!

One night at the Bus Station

    When we started our journey to Water Kingdom this sunday morning we had hardly expected that the day would end like the way it did.We had hell of a fun at the Water Kingdom.The rides were real scary and so fearsome that before every ride there was an apprehension in everyone's mind. But the rides were really worth the fear and thrill .Thus the day was all fun and we were pretty exhausted and badly needed to get back to Pune and to our rooms and get good sleep.We had already had a lot of adventure at the Water Kingdom and there was no room left for another one.But destiny had some other plans for us.

    We reached the hostel late at around 1:15 a.m.So we werent allowed in.We tried to argue with the guards but they didnt budge.They wanted us to submit our I-cards and wanted us to shell some money out.We were adamant too.After having shooed off from there,we thought of going to friends' flats but we were six of us and the flats were pretty far.So we chucked that thought and went straight to 'Shivajinagar Bus stand'.

    We all were so exhausted that we found some benches and let ourselves fall asleep there.But it wasnt cosy there.I had a look around and envied all the people who were sound asleep.I and Jitu had a walk around the bus station to see if there are some benches on footpath where we could lay for some time.But all were occupied already.We just could not help but laugh at our plight.So we just came back and had short naps before it was 5.00 .We headed back to hostel asap and threw ourselves on bed.That was the end of that illfated night.

    Nevertheless ,it is something to be cherished. After all when we are at end of some journey(like the one we are at),it is incidents like this that make the journey and the end beautiful and memorable,isnt it??

 A hard attempt at sleeping....


 Souls deprived of sleep....


I envied all of them...sleeping so peacefully.

Rahul and sunny!!!

  Meet Rahul and Sunny....they stay on the footpath just in front of COEP Boys' hostel,met them at the juice center.

First they were apprehensive ....




then they shed their inhibitions.....




And then they happily posed!!!

Sleepless Nights......

      Another sleepless night......3rd in a row.And the next day when I am gonna carry these swollen eyes around,there are gonna be accusations that I do nothing but sleep the whole day.Sleepless nights arent new for me.I have had them before but they have never troubled me the way they are doing now.

      Earlier during sleepless nights, I used to enjoy tossing over pillow,smiling a bit at some joke cracked earlier during the day.I loved to dream with eyes wide open and build my castle of thoughts during such nights.And when I did neither of these things I either found solace in reading,writing or listening to my favourite music.

       But nothing has proved helpful the past 3 nights.I tried to recollect any pleasant thing that happened during the day but could not do so.I took a pen to write and ended up writing crap(like the one i m doing right now..).I tried to read and realised that I had been reading the same page for the past 15 minutes.I put on my headphones to listen my favourite tracks and found them monotonous.

      Huh.....is it the nostalgia about leavin the college thats slowly creepin in? or is it the WAit for something that is elusive? As I write this, I see pages of a half-read "Twilight" thats lying on my bed, flipping over.And I m going to give it a try.Lets see if sleep beckons me this time...

Previous post ...revisited..

Hiya...I just forgot to introduce my team in the pic in the previous post-a mistake on my part-my sincere apologies..

  Anyways...from left to right in the pic we have..the always energetic VINIT,the ever charming SAYALI,then there is me followed by the man who needs no introduction(:-)),the very endearing and always supportive SHYAMA(our dance section head)...the very funny RONAK and finally the always smiling,MADHURI

  Hey..I also forgot to mention our achievements-- 3rd prize for choreography and 2nd prize for group dance.

Pics worth having a look at!!!

    Some days ago ,an IT expo had been set up at our College Playground.Our College Playground is mostly used for such kind of expos.Computer peripharals are available at cheaper rates at such expos. I along with my bunch of friends decided to check it out.

   When we entered the expo ,we also noticed a photo exhibition being set up aside by Sakaal group.After kinda exploring the expo,we reluctantly went to the photo exhibition.But the pics put up there were so astonishing and captivating that I borrowed Karan's phone and snapped some interesting pics there.(Ohh,I just remembered getting a good camera having a good megapixel quality goes on my wish list).

   Here are some of the pics...To view more such interesting ones visit http://picasaweb.google.com/akshay160489/Exhibition#.and click on SLIDESHOW on upper left corner.




















































This one is my favourite....



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My Childhood fantasy comes true...

     We all ,as kids in kindergarten,must have had a lot of thrilling fantasies about growing up to become a pilot,an armyman,a detective or be a superhero and save lives or be a cop and nab the bad guys...(Ppl..I ll let a secret out...I fantasize all these things even now. :-) )

    Well frenz..I got a chance to kinda live one of my childhood fantasies this sunday.We,Pankhudi volunteers,had planned to celebrate the Children's Day on 15th Nov(We couldnt do it on 14th!!).There was a dance,some sermons and a Mime.The Mime was a story of three theives.In the mime,I got to play the COP,who eventually nabs those three thieves .I had always dreamt of being a COP.Thanks to the mime ,I got to live my dream.Though it was just around 30 sec appearance ,I enjoyed doing it.And yes ..the kids enjoyed the mime too,and that was the most important thing.

     All n all ..the event was great.Trust me people...it really feels great to see those innocent smiles all around on kids faces.The kids were at there best when they danced.The ambience was inundated with mirth and I was overwhelmed.

         By the way here is the pic of "The COP".

Things to keep in mind while confronting(for the first time) a girl you badly have a crush on.....

Hello people,

       After a good ten odd days of sheer enjoyment in Diwali vacation,I am back with some stuff.I wanted to write about how I spent my Diwali vacation,about the Get-Together that we had in our school and what all things I did in holidays.But,I think pending things should go first..I should have written this post precisely 15 days ago,(the day it happened) but it got delayed due to some inevitable reasons.

       Before I begin my sermons,I would like to tell that what I am gonna write is a blend of personal experiences and my friends' experiences.Some of you might connect with it,some might find it absurd.So..here I begin.Following are the things to remember while confronting a girl you have a crush on.....



1.)Initiate the conversation yourself.(She is a girl ..she wont do it...unless you are as good as a heartthrob or a superstar...I'm not :-) ).Before you begin ,you will feel tickles in your stomach and a sudden intense surge of emotion in heart,your heart will pound faster.Dont just panic...be cool.It will only last for a few seconds till you begin the conversation.

2.)Avoid questions that will only fetch Yes/No for an answer.

3.)Try and avoid pauses during the conversation because the silence that falls in between is embarassing one.You will feel that it has been there for eternity.

4.)Try and not blabber( Damn it...I did:-( ).

5.)Many people would advice you to look into her eyes while you are talking to her.I did the same...But believe me friends...its not that easy...coz those eyes were so deep...so unfathomable..I just could not help but fall for them.Then,I had no idea where the conversation was heading..or what she said..I was completely lost for a moment.And so will you be, if you follow suit!!!!


        Last but not the least....do not just scare her from behind.Walk in from the front..Go ahead and break the ice...
              Thanks for stopping by.Hasta la vista....

The Last Fortnight.......

     Hi folks...If you might have noticed the interval between two of my consecutive posts..it must have dawned on you how regularly irregular I am.Its not like I dont have stuff to write....its just that I have to have the right disposition to go and write a post.

         This post is not meant to be a didactic one.This is just meant to review the happenings in the last fortnight and the fortnight previous to it(the real reason being ...its to satiate my today's hunger for writing).

         To start with,we had 3 biggies(read:companies with a big name) lined up for placement one after the another at the start of this month.There was ZS(Zoltners and Sinha),there was NVIDIA and there was JOHN DEERE.I wont go into much of detail illustrating how the test was and all that stuff.I would just say that I flunked at the first two(didnt even clear the apti) and got through the third one(JD).But,eventually,didn't manage to convert it into an offer(after a so-so technical interview and HR round).I was not meant for JD,I think.

          Then...we had mid-sem exam which was a disaster.This time I found it more difficult than the previous ones.But then honestly I hadnt studied as much as I used to study before.(Final year fever,I guess...).Hey,guess what?, I joined gym some days ago(another symptom....guys here usually join gym in the final yr).

         I also watched a few good movies this month.To name a few,A walk to Remember(romance),State of Play(suspense,drama),The Hangover(comedy),Man from Earth(History,Scifi).Out of all these ,Man from earth which is really a thought-provoking one had a long lasting impact on all of us who watched it together.Its a story of a professor who confesses to his colleagues at his farewell party that he is 14000 years old and he does not age(de facto,he had stopped aging a long before).He further goes on to reveal that he has met Buddha,had a chance to travel with Columbus and many more.His most shocking revelation comes when he discloses the fact that he was JESUS CHRIST.Now isnt that an interesting one?? Go get your hands on this movie and watch it people.Its really awesome.

          Finally,the best thing that happened to me last month was that I got associated with an NGO named Pankhudi.At Pankhudi,some children from the nearby slum area are brought at COEP and taught life-skills.My very first day at Pankhudi was a day I will always cherish.I directly went to the wakdewadi slum to get the children.While my colleagues went to get the students ,I was told to look after those already present there.I found an unexpressible happiness and joy in playing with those kids,some were pulling my shirt,some were hitting me with hankerchief,some wanted me to lift them up in the air and when I did so..the innocence and mirth on their faces was so divine,I just cant forget that.It was great.It was really beyond words.

           The next day,we went to an orphanage name MANAVYA near Bhugaon.It was a different experience there.We played with those kids,showing them some tricks which they were puzzled to see at first but then they got us to tell them how to do those tricks.I was pretty amazed when a guy there who is gonna appear for SSC this year took me to their computer lab and told me things about computer which even I didn't know.I was happy,I had finally found solace.

       Thats it guys..this is all that happened last fortnight.Now that midsem is over,the monotonous college routine begins from tomorrow.:-(

Ambitions.....

           Aaargh...Its been long enough since I wrote last.Being away from a place from where I could blog is what kept me away from writing a post.I was home the last few days courtesy the outbreak of Swine Flu.

           At home when I was having some quality time with my Mom and Dad,I just could not help but tell them about the recent disposition of my mind and about the unfortunate happenings with me.(Believe me,I felt a lot relieved after doing this...Its only mother's lap where you finally find the heavenly solace on...).And then my parents simply laughed and told me about the grim problems they had faced.My mother narrated a story about a boy in our neighbourhood and what he and his brothers had to go through to finally secure their lives.It was then I realised that my shortcomings were so insignificant.My father boosted me up by reminding me of my achievements,about my ambitions and told me that he didnt bring me up to be someone who gave in so easily to debacles but to be a fighter and finally be a winner.I felt so rejuvenated.My morale catapulted after hearing the word 'ambitions'.Man..all this time I had been oblivious to my ambitions.

           While I retrospect the days of my childhood,when I didnt even know what ambitions meant..when someone asked what I wanted to be when I grew up..I gave answers..answers that I look upon now as funny or absurd .I am sure everyone of us must have had their own fantasies about becoming a pilot or a doc..or a cop and must have answered the same way like I did,isnt it??Gone are the days when you could just hop from one aim to another and lost are the times of changing aims for the sake of writing an essay on "My ambitions in life" that would fetch u good marks.

           Ambitions,I feel,are things that one lives for,one is obsessed with.Ambitions are not that one dreams of.Ambitions are dreams that render you sleepless.I have had many such sleepless nights dreaming about things that I want to do.I have tossed on bed many a times dreaming with eyes wide open and I loved the feeling.It kinda inundates you with zeal and enthusiasm.

           Many of us have ambitions that require us to break the shackles of peer pressure.But very few lack the courage to take the path less trodden.

           So all you people like me out there who are really obsessed with ambitions and really wanna get what u covet,brace yourself up for the challenges that are gonna come your way and for the hundreds of sleepless nights you gonna spend.

                      Thanks for stopping by..

I am Complaining....:-(

My moment of solitude told me that when you are going low,the whole world wants to hit you below the belt.Thats what exactly has been happening to me or is it just what I think?.I am flummoxed.

           I seem to have lost my bearings.My behaviour has become an aberrant one.There is a kind of feeling of being insecure all the time,of being vulnerable.I dont know whats happening to me.I just dont know.

            I am yelling at people,spitting out all the venom of frustration on friends.I am complaining about everything that comes across.Gradually ,I am becoming cynical.I was not the same before.Though ,there have been times when I was bowled over and distraught over debacles,but I never gave in to them.But this time,I am not able to keep myself unperturbed.I never had to pretend that everything is hunky-dory because things were genuinely fine then.But I am pretending now although I dont want to.

           I dont know what I am transforming into,like some kind of maniac??.I am just sure of one thing ...... this is not the person I used to be.

The Audacity of Hope....

Yes....I am a final year student now.Our result was declared a month ago and I passed with good grades,not only good but in fact the highest that I ever got in all these three years of engineering.But they matter the least to me.Because they weren't there when I really needed them.The whole story goes like this..

           In our final year of engineering ,we are required to do a project that is sponsored by a company i.e they are company projects.The companies held tests to select students for projects.As soon as our end-sem got over,NVIDIA was scheduled to come the following week for selection test.The eligibility criteria was g.p.a 8.0 and above."Damn it!!!What the hell??",I exclaimed.I was just 0.02 short of 8.00.Mine was 7.98 then.Then came DELCAM.Again the criteria was 8.00.!I felt like being one of the most unfortunate ppl on earth.

           And after all these ,the most awaited thing came.Results!!They came but the harm had already been done!!My g.p.a now had augmented to 8.09 but I had missed two important companies."Cool,now I will be allowed to appear for all the companies !!",I mused.But when Binary Mantra came.I fell ill.Then there were rumours that Symantec would be coming the next week.I patiently waited .But when there were no signs of Symantec ,I packed my bags and set off to my home for my cousin sis's wedding.That was inevitable.I could not miss it.

           Then when I had just returned home from the wedding,I learnt that Symantec was going to conduct a test the next day.This gave me a coup de grace,a deathblow.So,in this way, I could not make it for Symantec .

           Now,I completely relied on TCS which was gonna conduct a test on 20th june.I reached Pune on 19th june and started preparing for the test.I thought I better grab this opportunity or I will be in real mess.But even this time ,I didnt succeed.I dont know what went wrong.Now I feel like being "misfortune's chosen one",like "ill-fate's favourite child".And what adds to the lament is watching people around you getting projects and discussing work and you are in total despair. By this time ,lot of people have gotten projects in companies and some have even started their work.

           But I still HOPE that I wont be left empty handed.I still HOPE that even I wud get a company.I still HOPE,that there would be bliss after this period of dismay.I still HOPE that this trauma would be over and I would be on cloud nine one day.Yes, I do HOPE.

           And such is the POWER of HOPE and its audacity that it drives in optimism in your life.It is HOPE and ultimately optimism that makes you believe in your self and hikes you up to face the challenges that are awaiting!!!!!


May HOPE be with you.......

The Bus incident...

     This incident took place when I was travelling back home from Akola to Buldhana(my hometown) after having attended my cousin sister's wedding.There is nothing very special about this incident except for the fact that it narrates how cheap and selfish some people can be.


     So,I was in the bus...When I boarded the bus,there were only a few people in the bus.But as it approached Buldhana,it got packed with people.(I still dont understand,why does the govt. not impose any restriction on the number of people that can be stuffed in a bus.And even if there is any such restriction,why dont the authorities or the bus conductor care to implement this?It gets quite messy and suffocating when buses are stuffed.)Well.....So,I was just one stop short of my destination..plenty of people were standing.


     At this stop ,one very old man boarded the bus.He was so old that the bus conductor had to help him board the bus.He even suggested him that he better take another bus coz this one was too jampacked and crammed.But the old man insisted...I saw him showing his pass to conductor.I was going to disembark at the next stop.I could not see the old man standing.Seeing his condition,I decided to give my place to that old man.So,I vacated my place and called the old man. "Aajoba, basa(old man ,have a seat)" ,I said to him rising from my seat.But before that old man could come and sit there ,a much younger man in his 30's had occupied my seat.That son of a bitch had seen me calling that old man but still he didnt care... That scoundrel gave me a nasty look that made me feel like that I was being mocked by him.Even that old man gave me a very pathetic look .I tried to protest and argue with that bloody S.O.B but I soon realised that the conductor was asking me to get down the bus,the stop I was to get down had come.No one amongst who saw this bothered to ask the man to get up and let the old man have that seat.


      I got down with a heavy heart and a helpless look from that old man that haunted me for quite some time.So,the next time you are in a bus n you wanna help someone by giving him/her your seat,just make sure some S.O.B isnt eyeing that seat...